a genius must be exhausting.

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Being a genius must be exhausting.

Who doesn't envy the life of a genius? In our mortal eyes, a genius's life must be easy and joyful, free from the struggle of searching for direction, guided by divine intervention from birth, and lacking the agonizing struggle of studying. From the very beginning, they possess effortless ease.

Talent often resides in adolescence, sprouting in the early stages of ignorance and uncertainty. God dislikes human weakness and timidity, dislikes hesitation and indecisiveness, and even dislikes self-awareness. He needs the youthful impetuosity and fearlessness to realize the miracles He intends to present on earth through the pure and untainted body of the young.

But youth always grows up, eventually encountering forces that frustrate them, causing them to doubt and examine themselves. When their mortal side is triggered, their wavering weaknesses begin to surface, hindering the parasitic talent, making it difficult to express it freely, and diminishing its overwhelming power.

At this moment, faced with dashed expectations, emerging doubts, and the heavy responsibility imposed on a genius, the boy, now developing self-awareness, was no longer entirely at God's mercy, and seemed to have lost God's help as well.

But God did not take away his gift. What you need to do is shed the burden of self-consciousness, control your human weaknesses, and train yourself to use human will to master God's gifts. I can imagine the pain and torment of experiencing all this, and the despair and danger of possibly getting lost in it, but only on the day you overcome it and overcome yourself will the gifts bestowed by God truly belong to you, and you will ultimately become a god.

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做天才也會很累吧

誰不羨慕天才的人生呢？在我們凡人眼裡，天才的人生都是輕鬆快樂的吧，沒有尋找方向的徬徨，生來便有神的指引，也少了些懸梁刺股的痛苦，一開始便是舉重若輕的自在。
天賦，常寄生於少年，萌發於懵懂未知之時。神不喜歡人的懦弱膽怯，不喜歡人的瞻前顧後，甚至不喜歡人的自我意識，他需要少年的橫衝直撞和勇敢無畏，透過少年毫無雜念的身體實現他意圖呈現的人間神蹟。
但少年總會長大，終究會遇到讓他挫敗的力量，讓他開始懷疑自己，審視自己。當作為凡人的一面被觸發，游移不定的弱點開始顯現，寄生的天賦就會受到阻礙，再難肆無忌憚地表達，削弱了大殺四方的威力。

此時，面對落空的期待和漸生的質疑，以及天才被強加的沉重責任，生長出自我意識的少年不再完全受神的擺佈，彷彿也失去了神的助力。
但神並沒有收走祂的贈予，你所需要做的是脫離自我意識的包袱，控製作為人的弱點，訓練用人的意志去掌控神的天賦。我能想像經歷這一切的痛苦和煎熬，以及可能迷失其中的絕望和危險，但只有在你戰勝它戰勝自己的那一天，神賜的天賦才會完全歸屬於你，而你，也終將成神。